Uncertain and Insecure

© 2001 Lilly Lavner

Each time that you appear
I fear that I can do nothing right
And if I know that you are near
Butterflies in my stomach take flight

Even when we're singing quietly in the dark
I'd do better playing for strangers in Central Park
I think it's because I want to win over your heart
Because you're all I worry over when we are apart

I used to speak and argue in a competent way
Never was without a good expression or word to say
The world was full of arguments that I could refute,
But when you stand in front of me I turn into a mute

Because each time that you appear
I fear that I can do nothing right
And when I know that you are near
Butterflies in my stomach take flight

I never used to stay out all night
Never agonized over what to wear
But since you've become a larger part of my life
I've gotta do something to get you to care

But each time that you disappear
You've left me in a world that's not right
Is it because you don't care? (I fear)
And I'm left crying through the night

Is the reason for this insecurity
Because I want your love
Or because it's what I don't want
Because love's just not for me

Do I act this way because I've got something to prove?
Maybe it's because your reactions always seem so rude
Is it because when you're around I'm trying to act tough?
Of your lack of support, I've really had enough

Each time that you disappear
You leave me in a world that's not right
Is it because you don't care (I fear)?
You leave me wondering all night